.:+I'm Drowning In A Sea Of Maybes And What Ifs+:.

I'm drowning in a sea of "maybe"s and "what if"s
It's getting harder and harder to breathe
And now all I want to do is hear your voice
I know I'm not that strong


Another vent.
The song was originally going to be "Just be friends" but that was based too much on a breaking relationship and mine is pretty steady so it didnt fit in the end. If anything my relationship is the only perfect thing in my life. I couldnt ask more from her.

Anni's jaw is so fucked up but fuck it, it's a vent and I think it came out pretty good for the mood I'm in.

Anyway art and character are mine.

Song- [link]
Speedpaint- N/A
Lyrics-

(Hello)
I open my window
And whisper quietly
(How are you?)
In a room all by myself
There's nobody here
(Morning)
The night is breaking
The rain is falling down again
(Tick tock)
Somebody please come and wind me up today

(Hello)
I remember this cartoon from a long time ago
(How are you?)
I was so jealous - he was loved by everybody
(Sleeping)
Enough with the daydreaming - I have to get ready soon
(Crying)
So I can hide the evidence of my tears

It's become a habit to just say "Oh well"
And I remember what you said to me yesterday
"I won't expect anything from you anymore"
Well, come on
I don't expect much from myself either
But what kind of reaction were you hoping to get?
All of these honest words are waiting to be free but
What eventually come out were lies
And this is how I live, floating aimlessly by
Just sitting here, wasting all my precious words
Tell me why you keep silent and hide it all?
Are you that afraid of somebody laughing?
You say you want to be alone - to leave you alone
But is that how you really feel?

I'm drowning in a sea of "maybe"s and "what if"s
It's getting harder and harder to breathe
And now all I want to do is hear your voice
I know I'm not that strong

I'm trying to get ready for the rest of my day but
my brain's not working - nothing's getting done
I think, "Maybe I should make up an excuse and just stay home"
Oh, come on,
I know that won't work
I don't intend to actually carry it out
I know, I know, so don't be mad at me

Whether I'm happy, whether I'm unhappy
Justly, cruelly, the sun will always rise
I have my hands full just trying to make it through the day
Now tell me - what more do you expect from me?
You don't have to let everything get to you
I know that you just want to be loved.
But who was the one who gave up first?
Have you realized yet?

If there's a time card for the life I've lived
Then I wonder what time mine ends?
And who will pay the salary for the span of my life?

Thank you
I want to tell you how grateful I am
Thank you
I want to tell you how thankful I am
Thank you
It only has to be just one time
I just want to cry without holding anything back
Telling you thank you, thank you
Tell me why you keep silent and hide it all?
I know that you just want to be heard
And I promise that I won't laugh or judge
So why don't you talk to me?
No one will understand if you don't speak out and
Just thinking it will never do
I know it's troublesome but it's human
You and I, and everyone

Hello
How are you
I say to you: Hello. How are you?